Wow!  I don't think I've ever waited this long to write an entry on here!  Nevertheless, I'm back!

The semesters have been getting more and more difficult.  The coursework isn't getting any easier.  I'm studying more and getting few good results.  I've hit bottom, it seems.  Yet, somehow, I manage to stay motivated enough to keep up the work (except now, when I should be studying either physics or A&P).  I wish there were more hours in a day or less information to learn in a semester.  I just have to face the reality that there aren't more hours in a day and I can't take longer than a semester to learn this material.  ::suck it up!::

Outside of my academic career, I've been busy as well.  BJB and I have full weekends with events and church.  It's almost like I have no weekend to relax and forget...I DON'T have weekends full of relaxing and forgetting.  I do get to spend it with BJB, though.  That's worth it.  We've been together for almost a year now!  YAY!  Overall, this has been the happiest I've ever been.  Granted, I have broke out into a few tears, but they were over misunderstandings that were worked out.  I'm sooo glad he initiates working through things.  It makes me feel like he really cares (I know he does!).  He makes me feel so safe and wanted.    Life couldn't be better in that department (well, it could...like being able to see him more).

I've been volunteering more and it's getting hectic trying to juggle everything.  That's what my life has turned into...a juggling act.  It's almost frustrating.  Just last week I broke out in tears over a test I didn't want to study for, all my coursework I was facing that needed to be done, the fact that BJB felt he needed to lie to me about something so small as the fact that he drank alcohol to relax after a rough week, and I was sick the night before.  I felt like the whole world was crashing down on me. 

I need a break...a year off from everything would be the greatest thing in the world...but it's not going to happen.  The faster I get through the tough times, the faster I can enjoy my life and not have to worry about returning to the hard stuff. 

That's what I've been up to since the last I posted. 

Leave 'em sweet!