so, last thursday a friend encouraged me to express my feelings to BJB because, whether he wanted to hear it or not....i was definitely going through something.  after about 30 minutes of trying to figure out how to say it, i just said it.  and it took about 30 more minutes to get a response.  the waiting for him to reply made me feel like i totally screwed EVERYTHING up, but at the same time it made me think that if he couldn't handle my "love" then he didn't deserve me...and that was something i was preparing for (mentally).  HOWEVER, i'm pleased to report that he finally confessed that the time i thought my ears were playing tricks on me, he actually came out and said it!  and i think it was before i even slipped up.  that made me feel so good.  then when we were sharing exactly how we felt for one another, i knew he was feeling like i was. 

that's the good.  now the not so good...but not so bad.  friday he said we WERE going to see the movie Silent Hill.  however, this never came about because he decided to "workout" with some people in the gym, ultimately causing him to become so "tired" that no matter how many times i called, he never did wake up to see me.  well, not until late at night....like 10pm.  and even then, he slept until 2am. 

so, saturday....to cheer up, i went to the lake and kayaked.  that was well-needed alone time.  i enjoyed the sun and the water.  not to mention the work-out and freckles i received (it's very difficult for me to tan...so freckles are all i get).  when i got to my phone, i discovered several missed calls....from BJB!  that made my day.  my family went for mexican, and when we got home...he came to see me for a few minutes to make up for the night before.  how sweet.

sunday, even though he was late picking me up, he made the day special.  i enjoy laying on the back porch swing wth BJB and listening to the birds.  it's so peaceful in the country.  but that picture quickly fades as classes started back on monday and we have a few more weeks til finals.  bummer, huh?  guess we can't have everything...but, who says so???